[ That's a long time to think about someone and not talk to them, but then it is a two-way street. Their connection was thrust upon them, an intimate violation of boundaries neither of them bore responsibility for. But it was easy — or at least easier — to proceed as if she was alone with it. You can't bury a burden when you're sharing it. ]
I would be lying if I said I've just been busy I really didn't want to deal with... all of that
[he can't forget the sensation of her and the plateau afterward, like sloughing off skin that never belonged to him. how do you breach the gap between someone who isn't a stranger any more? not in the true sense. they'd become two halves of each other, recycling and recycling until nothing was left but one.]
i didn't want to push you. [and there's a second wave of guilt, like he wasn't prone to enough of it already.] but i don't want to act like it never happened, either. we were parts of each other. you saw more of me than most. are you ready to deal with it?
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Date: 2026-01-13 02:18 am (UTC)[ That's a long time to think about someone and not talk to them, but then it is a two-way street. Their connection was thrust upon them, an intimate violation of boundaries neither of them bore responsibility for. But it was easy — or at least easier — to proceed as if she was alone with it. You can't bury a burden when you're sharing it. ]
I would be lying if I said I've just been busy
I really didn't want to deal with... all of that
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Date: 2026-01-13 08:11 am (UTC)[he can't forget the sensation of her and the plateau afterward, like sloughing off skin that never belonged to him. how do you breach the gap between someone who isn't a stranger any more? not in the true sense. they'd become two halves of each other, recycling and recycling until nothing was left but one.]
i didn't want to push you. [and there's a second wave of guilt, like he wasn't prone to enough of it already.] but i don't want to act like it never happened, either.
we were parts of each other. you saw more of me than most.
are you ready to deal with it?