hey, yelena. have you been doing okay, since everything?
[he thinks about having checked in sooner, or saying something along the lines of i could have or i would have but nixes the thought. he's never been good at maintaining use of his phone and that's never changing.]
i've thought about you almost every day since september.
[and how much his magic might have made her want nothing to do with him, but she still came to the trials to show her support. that was then, though– christmas might have felt like a slap in the face when it comes to him.]
[ That's a long time to think about someone and not talk to them, but then it is a two-way street. Their connection was thrust upon them, an intimate violation of boundaries neither of them bore responsibility for. But it was easy — or at least easier — to proceed as if she was alone with it. You can't bury a burden when you're sharing it. ]
I would be lying if I said I've just been busy I really didn't want to deal with... all of that
[he can't forget the sensation of her and the plateau afterward, like sloughing off skin that never belonged to him. how do you breach the gap between someone who isn't a stranger any more? not in the true sense. they'd become two halves of each other, recycling and recycling until nothing was left but one.]
i didn't want to push you. [and there's a second wave of guilt, like he wasn't prone to enough of it already.] but i don't want to act like it never happened, either. we were parts of each other. you saw more of me than most. are you ready to deal with it?
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Date: 2026-01-12 10:37 pm (UTC)have you been doing okay, since everything?
[he thinks about having checked in sooner, or saying something along the lines of i could have or i would have but nixes the thought. he's never been good at maintaining use of his phone and that's never changing.]
i've thought about you almost every day since september.
[and how much his magic might have made her want nothing to do with him, but she still came to the trials to show her support. that was then, though– christmas might have felt like a slap in the face when it comes to him.]
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Date: 2026-01-13 02:18 am (UTC)[ That's a long time to think about someone and not talk to them, but then it is a two-way street. Their connection was thrust upon them, an intimate violation of boundaries neither of them bore responsibility for. But it was easy — or at least easier — to proceed as if she was alone with it. You can't bury a burden when you're sharing it. ]
I would be lying if I said I've just been busy
I really didn't want to deal with... all of that
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Date: 2026-01-13 08:11 am (UTC)[he can't forget the sensation of her and the plateau afterward, like sloughing off skin that never belonged to him. how do you breach the gap between someone who isn't a stranger any more? not in the true sense. they'd become two halves of each other, recycling and recycling until nothing was left but one.]
i didn't want to push you. [and there's a second wave of guilt, like he wasn't prone to enough of it already.] but i don't want to act like it never happened, either.
we were parts of each other. you saw more of me than most.
are you ready to deal with it?